On the cusp.

I am on the cusp of a career change, I’ve made a plan and I’m putting it into practice. As a 40 year old, main breadwinner, with a young son, I am convinced I am having a mid life crisis – but it feels great!!

I have just resigned from a corporate job, the end of a ‘successful’ 18 year career that has left me grey, tired, unhealthily fat, and prone to anxiety and depression. I’ve had some difficult personal experiences over the last 5 years and, whilst being something I would never want to repeat, they have made me realise that life is too short to waste. I have been dissatisfied in my career for over a decade, so I have finally given myself permission to take risk and do something about it by pursuing my own fulfilment and interests, thankfully will the full support of my husband!

So, I have accepted an offer of a place to go back to university andstudy a part time MSc in Environmental Management, something I have toyed with, and dismissed as unrealistic, for most of my adult life. I have also found an entry level job, at the university, which whilst being short of our current income will, (when combined with some rainy day savings and my husband hopefully earning a bit more,) keep the wolf from the door whilst I study and I hope will also give me a starting point to build upon for the next chapter of my life.

I am not sure about the ‘end game’, but that’s part of the good feeling, I feel optimistic and excited about the chance to explore, and to make choices based on what I want to do, rather than what I think I should do. There are so many options, and I don’t think I need to decide yet.

The point is I feel, like the world is open to me again, I feel like I have the opportunities of a 21 year old, with the benefit of the experience of a 40 year old – they say youth is wasted on the young – so I’m having a bit of it back!

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